07th June 2014. Hazrat Nizamuddin
Station, New Delhi
I
don’t like waiting but I still reached the station half–an–hour before the
scheduled arrival time of ‘Sampark Kranti’ Train on which my wife was arriving
from Jabalpur after a four–day wellness and meditation camp at Bhera Ghat, near
Jabalpur. I just wanted to be there the moment she stepped out of the train.
But, I had committed the proverbial sin of not checking about the running
status of the ‘Indian Railways’ train before leaving for the station. As it
turned out, and as is expected from the Indian Railways, the train was running
an hour–and–a–half late. That meant that I had two hours to kill.
I
spent some time walking up and down the platform during which time, I found out
the exact location on the platform where my wife’s coach was supposed to stop.
After that, I surveyed books and magazines at a bookstall at the platform. I
improved my knowledge about the destinations that one could reach by trains
from that station. Finally, after about an hour or so, when boredom had started
taking its toll on me, I decided to sit somewhere and do something on my
laptop. Yes, thankfully, I had my laptop with me. So, I bought a cup of tea
from a vendor and went back to the location where my wife’s coach was to stop
and sat down on a metal bench meant for three that already had another
occupant.
Towards
the beginning of 2014, I had started a blog about my views and opinions on a
variety of topics. However, after a few posts, I got busy on certain things and
could not post as frequently as I wanted to. So, to kill time, I decided to write
a post for my blog. I had read an article in a newspaper about a week or so prior
and thought about writing something on it. It was an article about developments
in a court case involving some terrorists caught after a bomb blast outside
Delhi High Court in 2011.
I
started searching the net for related articles and more details about the case.
For a good twenty minutes, I did not realize that the person sitting next to me on
the bench was keenly going through the articles I was reading on the net. Once
I realized it, I tried to ignore him but couldn’t help glancing at him every
couple of minutes, using my peripheral vision, and every time, I found him
reading the articles on the screen.
After
another ten minutes or so, I started typing my thoughts away, which were full
of contempt for the heinous crimes committed by the terrorists in the name of
religion. I was going with a flow and had put down more than five hundred words
within fifteen minutes. Just as I was about to start a new paragraph, that
person spoke,
“Are
you sure they are the real culprits?”
I
was surprised at his sudden attempt at a dialogue and turned my head to the
right to look at him and asked,
“What?”
(I had heard him but just wanted to make sure I had heard him correctly)
“They
(pointing towards my screen) .... Do you really believe whatever is written in
the articles about them?” he asked.
“Do
you know them?” I couldn’t stop myself from shooting away in a half-mocking
tone.
“No.
I don’t know them. But I know for sure that the police reports and the ‘supposed’
evidence in such cases are not completely reliable and the newspaper articles
or other articles based on such reports and case materials merely skim the
surface.”
“How
do you know that? I mean .... What makes you say that whatever is written and
mentioned everywhere is wrong and you know more about it?” I asked with a
mixture of contempt and curiosity in my tone.
The
person went quite for a while and started staring at something in the distance.
It was a good five minutes before he said anything.
“Are
you a writer?” he asked.
“Yes.
Not a famous one yet. But, yes. My first book came out last December.”
“And....
Are you writing this for your next book?” he asked, pointing towards the screen
of my laptop.
“No.
This is a small piece for my blog. My next book is a romantic love story,” I
replied.
“Ah!
A love story. That’s good. But, then, why waste your time on an article about
terrorists? What good would it do?”
“I
try and write my viewpoints on everything that I feel strongly about or that
touches my heart. Every year, hundreds of people lose their lives due to these
damned terrorists and their activities. They call themselves Jihadis or freedom
fighters or revolutionaries. But, the fact is that they are mere mercenaries
who probably feel a sadistic pleasure in spreading death and suffering. These
misguided Muslim youths feel they are raging a “holy” war but they are, in
fact, working against God and are spreading hate. Do you know that more than
ninety percent of the terrorists in the world are Muslims? So, what does that
say about their religion?”
He
did not reply. He simply smiled and shook his head and went silent.
After
a few seconds, I asked “What?”
“Who
do you think is behind these terrorists?” he answered with a question.
“Their
organizations like Al–Qaeda, Indian Mujahideen, Lashkar, etc.,” I replied.
“And...
Who do you think is behind those organizations?” he asked.
“Agencies
like ISI and CIA”
“And,
who runs those agencies?”
“Their
governments”
“And,
who runs governments?”
“Politicians”
“So,
if politicians are the ultimate source of all the mayhem called terrorism, how
is it about money or religion or belief? Is it not about politics and power?”
“Uhhh...”
I couldn’t say much.
“Anyway,
what would you do if you got to know of the truth behind these terrorists?”
“I
would write about it. I am the kind of person who does not like the truth
buried beneath any kind of layers. If I will come to know about it, I will let
the world know about it from me,” was my first reaction. “But, why do you ask?”
came the question soon after.
He
ignored my question and asked, “Let me ask you something important. If someone
were to give you an excellent and true insight into a terrorist’s mind and into
the world of terrorism, why should the person trust you? I mean, would you be
honest enough to mention everything truthfully? Would you have the courage to
mention the truth? Would you not simply run to the police with the details?”
I
sat up, thought about myself for a few moments, turned to face him and said, “I
am an atheist, so, religious bias is out of the question; I am an idealist and
am yet to vote in any elections as I believe that an honest politician is a
myth, so, political bias is out of the window as well. And, I am not a
policeman looking to simply close a case without caring about the truth. My
wife tells me that I live in an imaginary world in the clouds where everything
is as it appears and which is built in an ideal way or, in other words, I am a
simpleton with a different set of ideals and morals. Well..... if that can make
you trust me, you can tell me what you know and I will write about it.”
“What
makes you think that I am that person?”
“I
may be a simpleton but I am not a fool”
He
stopped for a few moments, rocked back and forth a few times, with his hands
pressed hard on the bench on his sides, while looking somewhere far away,
pursing his lips every now and then. During those few moments, I looked at him
closely, which I had not till then, and found him to be around my age, 32, may
be younger but definitely not older. But, even with a fair bit of stubble and
moderately dishevelled wind-blown hair, his face had a calmness that is rarely
seen in anyone, especially at our age. A relatively new blue jeans paired with
a white cotton shirt with sleeves folded till the elbows coupled with a simple
pair of white sneakers, and, he looked just like any other fairly average–looking
Indian guy. The only thing different about him, apart from the calmness on his
face, was the plain innocence and gentility of his eyes.
“Okay.
I will tell you. I do not know why but I feel in my heart that I can trust
you,” he said after almost an eternity and while still looking at some non–existent
horizon. Then, he turned his head towards me and asked, “How much do you love your
wife?”
“She
is the only person in my life and I probably love her more than myself. Why?”
“And
what about truth? How truthful and honest do you consider yourself? To what
extent can you keep a secret that can destroy someone’s life if divulged?”
“I
consider myself to be a truthful person. I mean, I have lied but never to harm someone, maybe an excuse to take a
leave from school or office; or when my wife was still learning to cook and I
would say a lie or two to avoid discouraging her; and maybe a few small ones
here and there for some small benefits, but, I have never said a lie that would
harm anyone. As far as keeping secrets is concerned, I have a black hole in my
heart; whatever goes inside stays there and never comes out.”
“If
that is the case, I would like you to swear on your wife’s life that whatever I
will tell you to write, you will write absolutely truthfully and without
changes, and, you would never tell anyone about me till the time the story is
out.”
That
piqued my interest and I looked straight into his eyes. I did not think about
what he would say and what I would write and, even though it seemed a bit
childish to me, I blurted out two words: “I swear”
“Great.
There is a lot of stuff I need to say and it is almost time for the train to arrive.
I am here to receive my wife who is coming from Jhansi by the Sampark Kranti
so...”
“What
a coincidence! Even I am here to receive my wife who is arriving by the same
train.”
“Cool.
So... let’s meet up some other day at some other place when you have time. Give
me your number. I will call you and will tell you when we can meet up.”
“Why
don’t you come over to my place? Or, I can come to yours,” I said.
“Nope.
You cannot tell even your wife about it till the story is complete and released
or about to be released. And, my wife does not know anything about it and I
would like to keep it that way. Therefore, we will meet at some coffee shop.
So, tell me when and where?”
I
asked him to meet me the next Sunday at the Coffee Home in Connaught Place, the
one located opposite the Hanuman Mandir. I do not know why but he gave a wry
smile when I mentioned Connaught Place. He took my number down but did not give
me his number. He did not even give me his name. By the time he took down the
number, the train, for which we had been waiting, had started entering the
station. We parted ways with a slight shake of hands and he went a bit further
away from the main entrance as his wife’s coach was three coaches down from my
wife’s.
He
glanced back once to look at me. He had a smile on his face. It wasn’t a clever
smile or a scheming smile or cynical or twisted or anything else that may be
construed as bad. It was an innocent smile full of hope and a belief that
something good is about to happen.
***************
The
following Sunday, we met at Connaught Place as we had discussed. He had called
me up a day before to check on the timing and we had mutually agreed to meet at
11 AM. Interestingly, his number did not display on my screen and simply
flashed as “Private Number” when he called me up. I am a heckler for
punctuality so I reached the place five minutes before time. But, he did not
arrive at the scheduled time. I had to wait for a good twenty – five minutes
before I got another call from that “Private Number”. He apologised for being
late and asked me to come out of the Coffee Home and go to Barista in the Regal
Building complex opposite Janpath and wait for him there.
I
had half a mind to give up on the meeting and go home as I found it irritating
that he changed the venue on his own and after making me wait for long. But,
within seconds, I had second thoughts and I decided to go to Barista. I got out
of the Coffee Home, crossed the road and took the side–lane adjacent to the
Mohan Singh Place and reached Barista within five minutes. Once I reached
there, I had to wait for another five minutes before I saw him enter the place
holding a black helmet in his hands. He was looking quite different from the
day that I had met him at the railway station. He was wearing a bandana on his
head that he had probably worn under the helmet but had not removed even after
taking the helmet off. And, he was sporting a proper beard, unlike the heavy
stubble he had the other day.
He
came straight to me and apologized for making me wait and making me move from
the Coffee Home to Barista.
“Once
I tell you about everything and you come to know a bit more about me, you would
realize why I got you waiting and asked you to move to a different location
than the one that we had decided upon. I just wanted to ensure that there was
no one else with you. I am sure you would understand that it is difficult to
trust a person whom I have met only once. I waited near the Coffee Home to make
sure no one was waiting outside or near the joint. I asked you to come to Barista
as I wanted to double–check that there was no one with you or following you as
a lot of things can be arranged at a pre-decided location. I am sorry I had to
do all that.”
“That
is okay but what exactly is it that you wish to tell me that requires all this
secrecy and precautions?” I asked.
“You
haven’t brought any writing material or your laptop to make notes... so.... how
do you plan to note down whatever I am about to tell you?” he asked.
“Well...
there are two reasons for that. One, I do not know what are you going to say
and whether it would be good enough for a book or not. Second, if it is good, I
would rather listen to everything that you have to say and absorb it and
reproduce it later in my own manner. If I feel any need for it, I would bring a
notepad the next time we meet (and I did
carry a notepad and pen at all our meetings after that one and made
comprehensive notes of everything he told me). But, before we begin, why do
you not write it yourself if you believe it is good? Why ask someone else, and,
that too, a complete stranger?” I answered and asked.
He
took a long breath, looked at me and said, “It is my friend’s autobiography.”
“Okay...,”
I said, waiting for something more, wondering how big a deal his friend’s autobiography
could be.
He
looked all around and once sure no one was listening to us, he moved closer to
me, took another big breath with an audible exhalation and said, “Till 2008, my
friend, Dhiren..... was a.... terrorist.”
I
sat there speechless and wide–eyed for at least five minutes. My mind was
saying a lot of stuff but nothing left my mouth.
“Damn!!!”
“Is
he joking?”
“He
looks quite serious. Should I be scared?”
“He
said ‘was’ a terrorist, so what is he now? Did he surrender?”
“Should
I stay or should I run?”
“Was
he a terrorist as well? If his friend
was, then, he too must have been.”
“He
doesn’t look like a terrorist.”
“What
am I doing here sitting with a terrorist? What if I get into trouble?”
I
did not say anything but, probably, he could read my expressions, as he said,
“Do not worry my friend. Relax. I am not a terrorist and my friend isn’t a
terrorist anymore. He gave up being a terrorist six years ago, in 2008. Nobody
knows about that chapter of his life. The organization, that he used to work
for, thinks he is dead and the intelligence agencies never knew anything about him.
So, nobody is looking for him.... yet. He is a different person with a new
identity, new work, new life and new thoughts. So.... you can relax.”
“So
nobody in his present life, except you, knows about his past and nobody from his
past knows about his present, and, that is the reason he wants someone else to
write about him so that he is not exposed. Am I right?” I asked.
“You
are smarter than I thought. Yes, that is the reason. One, if he writes the book
and gets it published, the world will come to know about his new identity. Till
a few months ago, only I and his Godmother knew about his truth. And today, it is only I who is aware of it. Second, he is not
a creative person and no good in playing with words. And, it is the same with
me. I am good with English, Hindi, Urdu and Arabic, but, I do not think I can
write a complete story with a proper structure and episodic succession. And
even if I do, it would not be able to express everything that he needs it to.
Third, I researched about you and read your book. It was a good first attempt
and I am sure you would do justice to what he wishes to express. I dug up a bit
of your past as well and did not find anything there that would make me give up
this endeavour. And, finally, it is a coincidence that I met you and that
coincidence made me think as if fate wanted me to get my friend’s story out to
the world some way or another and that is why it brought you to me. So, tell
me, would you like to pen my friend’s autobiography, his thoughts, his story
and his emotions?”
I
was still lost in my thoughts about his proposal and about the fact that he had
done a check on me and had invaded my privacy in some way, when he said, “And,
before you decide, let me tell you that he does not want anything out of it. He
just wants his story to get out there in the world. He does not want any money
for this and, definitely, absolutely definitely, no credit.”
“I
was not thinking about money. In fact, I do not know what I was thinking about.
It is not every day that you get such a proposal. I was wondering how it would
be an Autobiography if I write it and not your friend.”
“You
are simply the medium my friend. It is his story and in his own words. You
would be translating it of course so you would be a translator. And, you would
be constructing sentences for a proper structure but that would be more like
the work of an Editor than that of a writer. Since you would not be adding
anything to the story, not even your views or opinions, it will be an
Autobiography. So.... are you game?”
“Yes.....
I guess.............. Let us start”
***************
I
just sat there, sipping my coffee, waiting for him to start his story. He
seemed lost in his thoughts and I could make out that he was searching for a
thread to begin with and, therefore, I did not disturb him and let him be for a
good ten minutes after which he said,
“Before
I begin my story, we need to lay down some ground rules. One, you would never
ask for my name or my friend’s name. I am sure it is quite obvious why I want
such an arrangement. One, I do not want anyone to know about our true identity,
not even you, and, second, tomorrow, you might get into trouble with the
authorities for this story. At that time, it would help you to not know our
names. So, just call me ‘dost’ (Hindi
word for friend) and for my friend, I will use a fictional name.... say....
Akbar. Two, you would never ask for
our contact details or address. I would contact you whenever required. Three, he has changed the names of everyone related
to the story and we will not give you the correct names of those people as he
does not want anyone to locate him through them. So, all the names in the story
are fictitious. But, 'fictitious names' does not mean 'fictitious people'. They
are as real as you and me. Four, you would not add anything of your own to add
flavour to the story or to make it more interesting. Lastly, try not to
interrupt me as I try and recollect all kinds of details while narrating the story.
Though I would be carrying notes of my own, there might be things I might need
to remember from whatever Akbar would tell me so that I may narrate everything
in a proper manner. Are these rules okay for you?”
“Yes,
I think I can live with that. But, there is one thing that I believe I should
say right away. I do not trust anything blindly. I dig deeper into everything
that I am told about before accepting it as truth. So, whatever you say, please
know that I will verify and authenticate it on my own. I cannot check on his
personal story but I would like to double-check the facts before putting my
name on the book.” (And, I did check all
the facts of his story before releasing the book. I checked all the dates,
locations, chain of events and every other relevant aspect thoroughly as I
wanted to believe it myself before asking others to do so)
“That
is okay. Shall I begin?”
“Yup.
Whenever you are ready.”
Again,
as was probably his habit, he took a deep breath, sat still for five minutes,
and, said,
“I
will begin his story from the day that started his transformation from a Terrorist
to an ‘Ex–Terrorist’. He wants me to run you through everything as it happened
as he believes that a simple narration would not bring out the emotions and
feelings. He will give me the exact words that were spoken, the exact
situations, and the precise details of everything that happened with him, with
as much minuteness as possible, and I would replicate the same for you. And,
please remember that I will be narrating everything in First person to keep it
exactly as he will tell me.”
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